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[Nezumi knows that that world visiting thing is going to come up soon and he's pretty unsure about it. Even if it's only for a day, he doesn't trust what the Malnosso are going to do. There's a reason he didn't offer to try it out.

But he figures it's time to finally start snooping this place out more. Go into the cracks he can't reach himself.]

Is there anybody who's good with machinery here? I'm talking about robots and cameras. That sort of deal. I want to discuss something.

[He wonders if he should say something else about this whole visiting another world idea, but he doesn't and only cuts off his feed.]

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[Nezumi's surprised to hear those words and he stares at him. Would it be better? In some ways. Life with Sion was complicated and he didn't know how to handle him. This hadn't been apart of his plans.

But this was a world that was dangerous for Sion. It wasn't the West Block and the danger wasn't as apparent, but it was still there. He didn't want Sion facing this world by himself. He had left Sion behind in No.6 because that place was safe now. Sion would make it safe.

Neither of them could say the same in Luceti.]

Don't you think if I wanted to, I could have gotten you out of here? Don't ask something like that.

[It still leaves the problem that Nezumi doesn't know how to act around Sion and that Sion's lost. He figures he probably does seem to be treating him differently compared to the Nezumi of Sion's time. He frowns.]

I don't hate you, Sion. I don't even dislike you. Being around you isn't something I had been planning on. That's all. But...

[He takes his shirt off. Maybe it seems random, but he points to a scar on his chest. It's the scar from the bullet wound that he got when he had jumped in front of Sion.] See this? Do you know how I got this exactly? [He takes a moment because saying it is hard. Telling Sion things is hard.] The bullet was meant for you. Guess how I got it.

[Somehow, without even realizing it, he had been holding his breath before Nezumi could answer. As if he was afraid that Nezumi would just shove a suitcase at him and tell him to get out. Why would he ever think that he would do that? He isn't that cruel, no matter how distant they get...

But before he can even exhale entirely and think of how glad he is that Nezumi doesn't hate him or even dislike him and wants him to stay here with him--despite how he still doesn't want to remain a burden--Nezumi shows him that scar. From a bullet.

His entire body freezes and his eyes grow wide]

...Y-You were shot. [I let you get shot.]

[He's been around Sion long enough to see where this is going. He frowns and puts his hands on Sion's face, making him look at him.]

And you saved me. You saved my life twice that day and don't you dare start guilt tripping yourself. It wasn't your fault I was shot. [Not exactly.] But you're the reason I'm alive.

[He says the words softly and strokes the scar on Sion's face. He frowns and keeps Sion looking at him.] What happened that day. With Safu, me being shot, and everything else? It wasn't anybody's fault. That was the way it had to go.

And I don't regret it.

[Once Nezumi has his face, Sion tries to avert his eyes so he doesn't have to look directly at him.... but those unique gray eyes of his. They grab a hold of him so he can't move, he can't look away, so he just swallows hard and stares at him.]

Should I? [Yes, he's glad he saved Nezumi, no matter how many times he could never regret doing that. Ever. But... should he regret putting him in such a dangerous position? He almost got killed to protect him.

And Safu... how could he not regret just letting her die? Even though Nezumi told him there was nothing they could have done, that she was already gone... ]

[Nezumi glares at him and grabs onto his face a little harder. It's not overly painful, but he's definitely putting some force into it.]

Don't ask me that sort of bullshit question. Safu wanted you to live, your mama does, and so do I. Maybe I got hurt, but don't spit on my actions like that.

Everything that happened that day happened for a reason and if it hadn't? The wall would have stayed. You tore that wall down and showed me there is a third option sometimes.

[He lets go of him and shakes his head.] I know there's a lot of things you don't know. You didn't experience them and I can only tell you so much. Things would make a lot more sense if you knew everything, but you're going to have to trust me when I say you shouldn't be ashamed of what happened. I got hurt and I probably could have died. That's true, but.

[The next thing is painful for him to say. He's been taught to never talk like this, but it's Sion.]

But I don't regret making sure you lived.

[Trust him? Well of course he'll trust him, he always has. But there's still a small part of him that feels guilty for letting Nezumi get hurt, for letting Safu die... even if he did manage to break down the wall and get the ending he wanted. Maybe after he experiences everything back home, he'll understand. He'll just have to take his word for it for now though.

...At least Nezumi doesn't regret making sure Sion lived. That's something, right?

He leans forward so his head comes to rest on Nezumi's shoulder now that he's let go of his face] Thank you...

[Nezumi looks down at him. He's still shirtless, Sion. But oh well. It isn't like he hasn't seen Sion naked quite a few times. This isn't really anything big.

He smiles despite himself and begins stroking his hair.] The saddest thing about this whole affair is you don't remember my beautiful and passion filled kiss before I left. It was much better than your kiss. [Happy, Sion? He's acting himself.]

[Alright, so he smiles a little at that. Not that Nezumi can see since he's still kinda hiding his face but yeah. He lifts his head up and leans back to stand up straight again.]

I'm sorry to disappoint. You could always do it again if that will make you happy.

[He laughs at that and turns away to get his shirt back on.]

You are very adept at suggesting the most senseless things. My deepest apologies, but some things cannot be duplicated. Your imagination will have to suffice until you are able to return home and experience it for yourself.

[Sion kinda smirks at that. He doesn't really have to use his imagination, he had kissed him plenty of times during the last experiment but still.]

And if I'm too impatient?

I'm afraid you'll have to live with the burning curiosity.

[He turns back around.] 'Tis a shame.

I'm not sure I will be able to live with a constant burning sensation.

[Really. It's going to end up killing him and you know it]

Poor thing. I cannot imagine how hard you struggle.

[It's just a kiss, Sion. Calm down.]

[He can't help it. He's missed out on so much.

He chuckles though] More than you'd imagine. So are you going to eat your food or let it get cold?

I will eat since apparently Mama here wishes of it.

[He wasn't too hungry, but years in poverty has it engrained to not waste food.]

[He chuckles]

Since when did I become the mother?

Since you've begun acting like one.

And when did this start?

Since you arrived here? I haven't begun journals on your dumbass behavior, Sion. I don't keep dates. [STOP ASKING QUESTIONS.]

[A sheepish laugh] Sorry.

Don't apologize when you aren't truly sorry.

Who says I'm not?

Why would you have true and honest regret over caring over me? Even if it bugs me.

Only apologize when you are feeling regret so deep, it shakes you to your core. Such meaningless apologies are pathetic.

[He blinks then frowns]

I... guess you're right. [So does this mean he should apologize for apologizing?! Sure he feels bad but what do]

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/SLAPS SION

OW RUDE

that's punishment for saying dumb things.

nooooooooooooooooooooooooo :C

accept it.

NEVARRRRR

then don't say dumb things. >:[

i never say dumb things :C

/points up thread

sssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhh I SEE NOTHING.

oh sure.

its true, i have gone blind

you should go to a doctor about that.

doctors can't do anything for sunflowers

sunflowers just need plenty of sun and love.

THEN TAKE ME TO A WINDOOOOW

/TAKES YOU THEEEEEEEERE

YAAAAAAAAAAAY /becomes a beautiful sunflower

you always were a beautiful sunflower.

o-oh why thank you

just being honest.

;v;

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